Those who seek the LORD will not lack any good thing.

I've been heading in the Naturopathic Med School direction for a long time. It occurred to me a week or so ago that I had not really ever consulted God on the matter, to see if my plans lined up with His. I just always assumed that God gave me this passion for nutrition, and surely it would be put to the best use as a naturopathic docotor. I am ashamed to say it took me this long to consult His opinion in the matter.

To find out what God wanted, I remembered how in the Old Testament men would receive answers to what they should do next by something that happened, either to a fleece or by a certain response from someone. So, it came to me. If my gerbera daisies grew another bloom in one week, I knew that God would be all for me heading to Seattle. If another bloom didn't come, then I would know He had something else in mind.

I checked every day. Not a single bloom.

God is sovereign over plants and flowers, so it must be that He has something else in mind. And because He is a Holy and Loving God, it must be something greater even than Med school in Seattle. It's just difficult because I'm looking around now, with eyes wide open and saying my heart, "Ok. No more Jon. Ok. No more med school. Now what?" I know God's children will not lack any good thing. I have been holding on and wringing every drop of hope from that verse, it may be the only thing that has kept hope alive in me.

Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

Fear the LORD, you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing

The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.

Psalm 34:8-10

It's kind of a hard time for me right now. I'm trying to find real Christian friends, a group of true believers around my age...but it seems to be a difficult thing to do in Tallahassee. Too much superficiality and worldliness. They look and act and think just like everyone else, it seems. Praise God for my roommate Leola. She is my black sister. We are both going through some things and we draw strength from each other, in the Lord.

For now, I am going to " commit [my] way to the Lord; trust in him; and He will act." I will "be silent before the Lord and wait expectantly for Him." Psalm 37:5-7

I just can't get over how gorgeous gerberas are. And how much more so is the heart of their Creator?