We don't have to fight to hold on anymore.

Can I just be honest? Since we speak through songs now, I must confess I'm not a hundred percent sure what Jon wants from me. I am free, I am happy, when I think of him it is almost always with a smile. I don't mean to be playing any games, I don't want to be stringing anyone along. I really do not know what the future will bring, and I am open to whatever (and whomever) God has in store. I have finally fought battles long and hard enough to be in an open, genuine, prolonged fellowship with Christ again. His grace has saved me, again and again, and again. Over and over and over. I am the Ezekiel 16 whore, but He is the God of Mercy, and keeps His promises. I am covered from head to toe by the precious, righteous blood of Jesus, my sins He remembers no more. That is the most important thing to know about me.

I will say again I am open to whatever God has in store. He is not planning harm or hurt for any of his disciples. Relax, be at peace, no more striving and struggling. No more holding on so tight. Relinquish control, and the hurt and frustration will melt away. Give over the reins. Heartache is not from God. We don't have to fight to hold on anymore. Fill our hearts with patience and trust in You, Lord.

Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. Psalm 55:22