Freedom.

It's finally settled. I have been so at rest these past couple of days, more at peace about everything now than I've been in months and months. This thing that has had such power over me for so long is absolutely powerless now. Still not exactly sure what it was, but I know it had something to do with Jon, something to do with my parents, and then I was trapped somewhere in the middle. My conclusion is this: There is hope for a second chance. A chance to learn from past mistakes and to do things the right way the next time around. But I have also finally come to understand that I need to be a whole person again first. Then, with regards to future possibilities, we'll just have to wait and see.

I am so excited about this newfound freedom. Maybe everything has already been said over and over in my head, but now my heart has heard, and is freely journeying to a place of healing, restoration, and redemption. I'm finally free, after months of battling depression, heartache, longing, emptiness, doubt, sin, and rebellion, I am free. The dark is not so dark as it was. I can see a faint glimmer of the light of hope, and I'm so excited to be free to run toward it.

Newsboys - "I am free"