Why a new blog?

This blog is going to be about the aftermath. The aftermath of a relationship that seemed so perfect and wonderful, but has since proved to be founded upon all the wrong foundations. There is only one foundation to build upon, and that is Christ. We didn't. So it all came crashing down.

I feel like that is more than enough of an explanation.

Yesterday, I listened to a John Piper biographical lecture on the life of Adinirum Judson. He was a foreign missionary, who brought the gospel to the people who lived in __. His life proved horribly difficult, filled with death and sickness, trials and prison. I listed to it on the way home from church, and sat in my car for another hour or so to finish, because it held my rapt attention. Afterwards, I couldn't move, couldn't speak for a little while, and my mind was so overwhelmed that I really could only convert oxygen in to carbon dioxide for a few little whiles. Then I realized, I knew, that I got a wind of the fact that one day, I may be doing missions. It has been an underlying factor, mainly because our church is so oriented upon missions to China. But more than that, I got hints when I was a small girl...I felt like I was good at communicating nonverbally and paying attention to what people were saying without a word being spoken. I was very, extremely sensitive (and still very much am) as a young person. I can pick up on how someone is feeling quite quickly, or just at least if there is something wrong.

But not only that, I liked it...I like communicating, I loved my speech class, I like writing (when I'm writing about something that I want to write about) I like reading. I loved my Spanish class in high school, and wished that I could have learned so much more. Nutrition interested me for a long, long while, and I still am a big fan of biology, and learning how the body works. But I don't want to be a nutritionist, or even a nutrition teacher. I will probably still get my degree, because a bachelor's degree seems to be the key to most doors in today's society.

I'm so ready to start life, to begin something new, something big. I want to fall in love with Christ again, to know and be known. I want to live a life for him. I want to know him. I want to know who this man is. I want to know him.